entre manos

the fragile power

of time 
quietly articulates

without words

 speaking

volumes

whispering 

without shouting

A beautiful...
unsuspected surprise

"stimulus catalyst!"

persistant 
silent
wanderings

lead me to believe

that 

fountains of inspiration

lead forwardly 

toward truth

step aside blistering

disillusion

crystalized beacons

WILL summon us on

is it the dawn that is approaching

or the sun beginning to fade?

*break*

*we shall return after this very important but brief interruption

Where was I when I was only pretending to be there?

What far-off spaces was the grimacing youngster inhabiting 

without leaving the living room or classroom?

In what direction was he spooling his thread?

As a rule,

I was moving backwards in time 

ravenously hungry for the bloody entrails of history 

and mad about the Pitch-Dark Ages 

or the Baroque interim 

of a war lasting thirty years.

Peeling the Onion

Günter Grass

it's been a long time coming

11 és el nombre que porto

fa 11 anys que he arribat

i ha estat una època molt interessant

la veritat, no nego,
m'agrada el lloc on estic

però, és que, malgrat tot, 
mai he sentit molt a gust.

Les tradicions, sempre m'han atret, i per això ...

els Castellers, el gegants, 
Els correfocs, els trabucaires, 
les calçotades,

... els he viscut amb molt emoció.

Podríem parlar també del vi i la gastronomia que són, evidentamente entre els millors. (que per a mi ha estat tot un honor aprendre fer alguns plats ...)

El que no acabo d'entendre és cert manera de ser,

parlen d'orgull però per a mi, més aviat ho percebo com arrogància.

Perquè dic això? Només arribar, tantes em van dir que viuen en una societat tancada, i tot i no creure-ho, em sembla cert. Diuen que costa molt tenir una amistat a Catalunya, i això he viscut en la meva pròpia experiència. Jo entenc la mentalitat, el que no em quadra és, perquè s'ha de morir intentant.

És tristamente cert, vivim en temps difícils i no sé si estem menys units o més separats. El que em pregunto, és que és que fa falta al món avui en dia.

Total, demà és un dia molt especial per aquest país i respecte la seva veu, 
tant de bo que
per una vegada, 
els donarien el que volen.

pd.  September 11th for me, 

is a day of great mourning and sorrow.

"shuffle!"

one last hand

dealt over and over

the same cards come up

 like rolling the dice

waiting for those snake eyes to manifest

a senseless prisoner

betting on 

tyrannical liberation

Mà·dura

The very essence of

that famous little one,

and in all seriousness,

he was the swine less inclined

to adhere to amusing pranks.

 Faithfully he toiled

and with stunning accuracy he developed

-the most certain solution-

against that big bad demon

His logical, cunning wisdom

is what sustained him 

each brick meticulously set in place

his refuge

from all harm

tight rein 

saving grace

my wheel, it does not turn

It is quite obvious, that this blog is FOR and about ME.
It serves as the instrument which I utilize to encounter my path, therefore, I desire not an avid following, only to hear my own voice on the wind.
For quite sometime, I have been having difficulty, getting my wheel to rotate.
Is it the axis itself, or, as I often suspect, has one of its spokes been broken?
I have come to the conclusion that it is not broken, but more accurately, it is as if there is one which is made of substance so foreign to my being that it has been rejected by my "body".
It seems simplistic to say that, and more often than not, it would appear that --
my return to theatre COULD fix all my problems.
It is absolutely false this assumption.
Now while I have often dreamed of my very own BLACK BOX, it serves to say that, without an audience, it would never survive.
Which leads me to the "broken" areas on my wheel.
It is unrealistic that neither a "loving relationship" nor, a fiercely impassioned career is what will sustain my boat, it is more importunely the balance between ALL sectors of the wheel.
I summon my totem animal, to aide me in the task of correcting the imbalance in my life.

The audience, however small, should be participant in THIS play
....for if there is a spoke which cares only for itself,
needs to be larger,
begs for more attention....
 it renders itself useless to the rest.

the unlikely protagonist

entering a space

 your heart ceases

a sensation 

most difficult to fathom

desire ignites

  you sense a movement 

ever so subtle

your breath cuts 

as you wait...

for the lights to go DOWN

and the show

to BEGIN

obsession

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