the call from within

I had knocked on so many doors,

then I decided to open my own

 -discovering antique parts of me-

some needed to be dusted, 

held 

and reincorporated 

into my world

and then those that were ready to be left behind,

grateful was I for their lessons,

and the result of releasing them

created a load, unmistakably lighter

Enabling me to embark 

again on my journey

polishing and redefining

until the time arrives

to bloom anew

run

run so fast
...so free
run...
so far
-that you forget about me-
so far
that I arrive 
right back at your side.

sota del til·ler

Abajo de su sombra

sentí un hondo susurro, 

en nombre del. viento 

y me senté

De lejos vi como ondulaba

forza Divina, Melodía de mi interior

El miedo mantenía al raya

mientras él deslizaba muy cerca de mi ser

 (.. it slithered within reach of my hands)

Estimado serpiente,

con tu bálsamo tan antigua,

gracias por venir a verme

y enseñarme el camino 
hacía al cielo.

'til eternity

They say that it is darkest before the dawn,

as I dive, deeper in, embracing the essence of me.

I shall meet you on the other side.

absence...

decir que te echo de menos, 
esto sería mi gran revelación
después de tanto esperar, que de repente
el viento llevaba
la fragrance de tu ser
y mi vida
nunca será igual
Él vacío parece 
mucho más que imaginé
por esto,
por las noches
llamo a tu nombre
y la oscuridad
en seguida me contesta
otro vida, quizás, será...

Once upon a time...

it was
all that I dared to dream...

petite réalisation

ever so small 
that 
it was

through distant travel of 

time, miles & light

one day, 

she broke through the cracks

and as her simple beauty was unmistakable

 few ventured near,

for so quaintly hidden was she

and all rushed by
keeping pace

with their paths.

*startle*

walking by
the door swung wide open
upon the hinges hung the summon
"UNAVAILABLE!!"
Hmmm, I thought as I strolled on.
At that precise moment I became engulfed by a fragrance 
disguised, it affectively called me to bathe
and submerge my every pore.
However, I was late as usual, for I needed to catch the next train...

Rain

las veces que lloras por alegría

por haberte conocido alguien

que te rompe cada esquema,

te enseña lo bello es vivir

con gratitud infinita,

te entra ganas

de volver a entregar

ésta gran sabiduría

y volver a andar

mirando el cielo

agradecida por ser

aquí
y

AHORA

Time, heals all wounds.

the sound of the wind

Lilliputian were, the traces of her voice

yet ever tiny still, 

the gait that marked her path.

Without a word she summons 

her most obedient companion

and those who listen, 

were her most appreciated accomplice.

For far from the depths emerged

what some had never dared to seek 

the breath of cryptic silence...

I hear myself,

I hear myself

hear now, I breathe.

and with adamant fervor I let go

letting go 

 to evolve 

-a design-

most eloquent

and variably

ME

feel alive

saltando al vacio

Miras el camino
y parece interminable...
Buscas mil maneras de esquivar el trayecto...
Te haces infinidad de excusas porque no podrías lograr tu objetivo...
Pero el alto valor de perseguir los sueños y saltar todas las normas,
se manifiestan en cuanto lo hagas.
Cuando pintas fuera de las rayas,
grites a lo más alto,
y te susurras a todo momento...
Esto es el aliento 
que llena los globos de la incerteza
y es el unico manera para despegar
de lo ordinario, del mundano.
Son los pasos (que nos cuentan, no materializará ningún resultado bueno)
que nos lleva a los bosques mas oscuras para revelar una luz penetrante
que te abre todo y a todo,
Defina de nuevo el mundo
y saltas el vacío
para confiar en quien eres.

curiousity

oddly so it seems,

once discovered... 

The Key

(hidden ever so conveniently)

You realize...

 has the ability,

to open 

every door.

Seeking light...

The most precious jewels that I own,
are my tears.
Its source,
their flow
are memories of you.

point blank

straight to my heart

.Ready, aim, fire.

prism

silently

it burns

the truth 

that set free the past

silently,

I weep

yet, forward, 

is the only path.

and I bleed

and bleed

and bleed

from inside

as I hide

for them, 

from you, 

from me...

breathe,

breathe,

calm

that precious 

silent

beast
and learn
that this duality of me & I
in reality is only One
 & the path to peace
reveals this 
simple truth

pull

Increíblemente, existe
una fuerza 
entre tierra y cielo.
Un magnetismo, 
que se siente 
desde los pies 
hasta el corazón.
--que sube por el pecho 
y llega
hasta la corona.
--y se dice 
que por aquellos caminos,
esta energía mueve
como mil por cien,
tantas corazones, 
mirando hace el cielo, 
sus pies, 
guíados por las estrellas.
mantengamos fuertes, 
seguimos el camino,
lo que nos indica al corazón,
de nuestra tierra.

estas palabras que escogí yo,
esta tardanza, que me hizo ver
estas lecciones que mi ayudo entender
estos momentos,
cuanto aprendí,
y, ...me perdonó.

De esta luz,
a la oscuridad que me envolvió
desde lo profundo,
me abrió a todo lo que soy
para agradecer
lo qué la vida me regaló

to put words to paper

it pains me even now

that which lies in the past

is what has brought me to this place

my only living regret is to have been unable

to manifest the deepness and affection deserved
from nothing...

I am no stranger to circumstance and as such

I now wade into this sea,

this sea of uncertainty,

following the only guide which knows the way

my heart, for it pounds with force as I now climb

that ever steep pinnacle, to which when I surmount its mighty shelf

I shall dive ever so deep, --eyes closed, and I shall summon wings with which to fly.

inesperado

me sorprendí, verle
vestido así
sin pretensión 
al descubierto,
nadando..
Nadaba cerca de una isla
la isla que quería conocer.
Nuestros caminos, cruzaban y volvían a su trayectoria.
yo continué, mirando el mar, deseando respuestas,
y me vuelve a la vista, con un latido imposible ignorar...
y, volví a andar...
y ando, y ando,
mirando el mar
esperando un día
estar sumergido, 
y poder nadar en él.

fury of the storm

hanging by a thread

ever so carefully
she felt the wind caress her, 
limbs, torso, legs, arms, face and all.
as she silently waited
until the sun reached it highest point
gradually leaving way for the coming of the night.

breathing, hanging by a thread

sacred coil

after the rain

Once upon a time

Once upon a time,

I tried to create.

From the vastness of hope

I clambered to forge a path.

In order to make the round peg fit

into a square hole.

All foreseen necessity, dictated

sheer devotion.

Much like Sisyphus whose continual

ascent, each time was met with denial.

Yet the clueless shall continue on, and until...

A calling from the Southwest, an illuminated horizon,

triggered my instincts to change course.

Everything fades to uncertainty,
 as faith remains in my grasp.

loss

with each loss

escapes my soul, a down pour of emotion

the power to heal

the time has come
to heal past wounds
shrivelled up,
I start again
this time, alone and uncertain
it perhaps appears needless
to an ever foraging eye
yet it is in this, unknowing
that transformation is ascended

-este momento-

Dicen que no hay tiempo

que es el momento de actuar

pero yo creo que en este momento

tenemos la oportunidad para cuidar,

para amar, perdonar

pero sobre todo,

para librar.

Que dejemos volar aquel pensamiento 
nuestro más esperado sueño,

Que este momento,

no dejamos escapar

para sentir la luz que nos toca

cara al Norte,

y que comenzamos, 

a andar.

Keep me

in silence

I run....

 -silent morning-

I rise and hear the call

maintaining the cadence

dictated by my heart

before me  

I observe flight

and from here below

I trace its path with my soul 

silent early morning

I long to embrace, 

cold, wind, heat, and dark
light, warmth, and breath

and with it,

discover new realms.

Creer

I believe

to have found the path

and with its revelations

I continue on

with each pause and respiration

slowly, however slowly

I shall advance.

renew

quant ja saps, nada mai será el mateix

...dicen, que se hace el camino
al andar

release

“A wise old owl sat on an oak; The more he saw the less he spoke; The less he spoke the more he heard; Why aren’t we like that wise old bird?” ~Unknown

inside out

irradiate
from the inside out
find center
and explore the world 
in this
entirely new way.
DA
I have found you
and with you 
I shall now travel
roads high,
valleys low
-for to have traveled that path
I am fortunate
yet to find
this peace 
which from 
the beginning
resided deep within
now, 
por fin
breathe.

vacio

how could something 

which never existed, be destroyed

or a love be purchased, 

that was never for sale

these days

dark and mournful mornings

summon

the promise of a new day

Refuge

Refuge=Rufugio

Es el lugar, donde me encuentro tan a gusto.

Todo lo de afuera, 

yo voy pa' dentro

La música es mi guía, 

mi salvación en cuanto canto 

y suena en harmonía con su voz

Son momentos que me alivia el dolor,

me suelta el temor,

el sitio donde los enfados 

no tienen el porque

me fundo en sus brazos

y de nuevo

me incorporo

en el mundo

"being"

thyme will tell

the 4th wall

lately I've those images

that needn't be captured on "film"

their permanence in my mind

will last until I part and

that day 

I remember so clearly

even more so, I have even succumbed to the temptation

of reliving it over, ...and over again

the weather couldn't have been more perfect

as luscious breezes accompanied my steps

while I calmly conversed yet upon

"this" entrance

my whole being froze.

(it has been brought to my attention that I scare and run easily)

Rightly so!

In theatre I always loved the notion of breaking that Fourth wall

yet never had I to achieve it.

For I always sat, 

quiet observer, 

tucked into the light booth, 

a great distance from the stage.

(and danger)

A subtle approach, sigh, to no avail.

and I remember 

entering a crowd

the sight of this "being", 

stopped me cold in my tracks

without a doubt, I stopped breathing immediately

and my heart it beat so fiercely, I feared that all could hear

and then, everything around me, 
suddenly vanished into thin air.

Quickly, I saw an escape route 
as I feigned absolute innocence

and calm, forever calm

So close was I, to fulfilling *that* dream

I ran far, I ran fast, 
I remained silent and waited for the storm to pass
.....to be continued

timing

fragments of past

in my mind, it seemed so ideal, 
manifestations of comfort, 
without fear of what lies ahead--
asking myself where it is that I shall land. 
but what really sticks out the most 
is the absolute freedom that I found in dance,

                                    For Dance is my refuge

thunder

dark water
                       
                 flickered light
                                        evidencing that
                                                                which takes you 
                                                                                         to the other shore

the wind it blows

the delicate art

of hunting sound

it moves too quick

so quick

virtually exceling 

the speed of light

tictothetalk

ticktothetalk

make mine fly

upon the wings of the owl

ascending close 

the urge

my urge

to resist

fell so close to the morrow

to the marrow of my own fire

imperceptible

anava tan poc a poc, que la seva evolución era imposible percibir, 

però mica a mica 

ja començava guanyar terreny

fallen from grace

I once lost my voice





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Blue Jay feathers are also known to symbolize power of healing.

When in need of wisdom, finding a blue jay’s feather can signify that you are coming into a time of your life when you will understand your power, and how to weld it.

The meaning of blue jays in shamanistic terms:

*Pay attention to nonverbal cues of the people around you.
*Choose a spiritual path and go as far down it as you can.
*If fear presents itself, attack it head on with courage.
*Asses your talents and make a plan to use them fully.
*Choose a couple of the many projects on your plate and complete them.<<